Love Burst - Journal



I didn't start out trying to draw a heart or a butterfly. With eyes closed, I drew squiggles and curves. There was a freedom and happiness to the process. When I opened my eyes, I immediately saw the heart and highlighted it, then I saw the butterfly. So, the themes of love and freedom emerged from the darkness.

The other night, I saw a quote from Rumi that spoke about how we can't lose something we've loved deeply because that something, or someone, will have become part of us. Interestingly, the next night I had a dream in which my late father appeared, clear as day, walking towards me. I wasn't scared, more amazed. Dad looked really good, well, and probably about the age I am now, maybe a little younger!

Somehow after that, I ended up thinking about a bible story in which Jesus comes to the home of sisters Martha and Mary. While Martha becomes bogged down with logistics, Mary sits at the feet of Jesus and listens to him speak. Jesus seems to indicate that simply listening was what was needed on that occasion. It was as though Mary was sinking into the wisdom and presence of Jesus.

I've been doing that with friends lately. Sure, I've been talking and telling some stories, but I've also been listening and 'in the moment'. I think there is an abundance of love and freedom to be found in this practice (and yes, I am on another planet 47.2%* of the time), and maybe some colour, creativity and excitement too. 

*Previously mentioned young family member likes precise percentages. 


 

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